Introduction

Hello all! I guess to get started I should write a bit about myself, who I am and what I hope to accomplish by blogging and putting myself out there for others to read!

My name is Amanda. I am a 25 year old mom of a wonderful little boy who is the light of my life! He is truly amazing and daily he never ceases to amaze me with something new he has learned or something sweet that he does. I can't believe that my baby will be 5 this summer, it seems like only yesturday I was cuddling him and holding him close to me!

Baby #2 is on the way...so far she has been healthy even though my body does not love pregnancy and it seems to hurt all the time from being preggo! I just want to feel good again. Lately I have been battling insomnia something awful and added to the horrilbe heartburn that I get when I am pregnant, well I am in for a boatload of fun these last few weeks. I am currently 28 weeks 6 days preggo! I can't believe that she could be here in as short as 7 weeks and 1 day and be completely healthy. I still feel like so much needs to get done before she gets here and I feel like it is so hard to get it all done in time.

I work in the social work field, I am a recovery specialist at a mental health facility. I don't love my job, the beaurocracy actually kind of sickens me. Plus the fact that I am living on next to nothing wages doesn't really help me out much either. I feel underpaid and undercompensated for what I do, also I am salary so I do not get overtime. In the past I have worked in mental health at a hospital where I got overtime so I am used to being able to make a lot more money than I make where I am currently at.

I am actually looking into going back to school because if something were to happen to my man (God forbid, please don't take him!) I would not be able to care for the two kids or take care of them as needed. Yep, I would be lost and I would not be able to even keep them in the same lifestyle that they would be accustomed to. So back to school for me. I've looked into get my MA and going back to school to be a high school English teacher, both of which would cost me about $30,000-40,000 in continueing education costs and would only yeild me a $10,000/yr raise....this just isn't going to be good enough for me and when I go back to school I am not going to be able to do much else. I am going to have to get it right this time as I can't keep going back to school like I could have in a different life, I need to get it right this time. Anyways the conclusion is that I am going to go into a medical technical field. I am looking into programs now for Radiology Technician (xrays, anyone?), Surgery Technician, and Sonographer (songrams...). I am checking to see which one has the shortest time of going to school and which one will be the best option for me. I am hoping to return to school in January of 2009 full time and to either cut back to part time at my current position if I were to be allowed or to find a part time job where I will enjoy what I do and make decent wages (probably a coffee shop and if I have to resort, Starbucks).

So I have a ton of things to plan and do this summer. We are getting a pool pass for the family. It should be nice to be able to take Andrew to the pool. I am sure that he will enjoy it and it will give us a nice way to let off some of his energy! Right now he hates the daycare that he is at...I guess in part because his daycare before our last move was wonderful and he had so many little friends and here he hasn't had the same luck in finding friends and he has had a hard time after having moved and then being put in a daycare that is so different from what we had before. It is not that there were a lot of options as things in the small town that we moved to were limited. But they do have a nice summer camp program at the Y and he will be able to join in that fun starting at the begining of June. I am hopeful that he will enjoy it more. Plus I will be home hopefully just a few weeks after that on leave.

I am living with and dating the world's most amazing man. And let me tell you, after a series of failed and horrible relationships, well it is about time that luck in love should come my way. Shane is truly an amazing person, he is sweet, caring, considerate and yep he is still a man! LOL!

I figure a blog will give me an outlet, a place to vent when things at my social work job get to to be too much. A place for me to be able to talk about my children and to express how thankful and blessed I feel each day to have them be a part of my life and an outlet for the extra stress of going back to school. I want a place where I can be me, write annonymously and be able to feel like something is gotten out of it. I plan on writing about all aspects and details of my life and using this as my personal salvation and personal post into my soul. I do sometimes write poetry or short stories and stuff and I feel that this is a place where I will be able to share them as well.

To be honest I just need a space that is me about me and that allows me to talk about the things that I love and dislike in life. I hope you enjoy!!